kitchen Angst!

I am getting ready for a big move, and I need to “purge” a lot of things. This is not that strange, however I am moving 6,233 miles away so It is a bit different! My move is overseas and into another Country, and culture! I am trying to accept not only my moving… but also my complete change of lifestyle!!

I’m only taking three suitcase’s of my life at first. The rest will be shipped later, One year later at the least! This is causing a few problems for me, How do I decide what goes now, and what comes later? I am just trying to look at it like “what I need tomorrow” and “what I want a year from now”. I hate this process, but I will say it is making me see my life in a new light!. Today, I went through my shoes, and I threw away over half of them! I am sad about loosing them however, I also feel a sense of relief…

I have to learn a new language and culture, but I will also be able to try something I have never done before! I am so excited  and scared I know I will be very focused! I will be out of my element, and open to new things! I haven’t been in this for many years so I need it!!

I will keep you abreast of what happens… I am so excited about what will happen, that I can’t stop thinking about it! I look forward to telling you about my change from American, to Croatian!!!!!!!!!!

I think it will be fun and informative!!!!

Love,

James

Today at work, I was suddenly hit with a statement, one I’m not really unfamiliar with to be completely honest… but still jaw dropping!

I Love your Eyes!!!

It’s true, I have beautiful blue eyes, I know this. I had nothing to do with it, but I was blessed with a unique color of deep blue eyes. This fact is not lost on me of course, but after all these years I tend to forget.  I don’t look myself in the face very often, and when I do, I see the same iris’s I’ve seen my whole life. I must say.. it knocks  me off my game for a bit when someone mention’s it.

I do love having them though!

My eyes not only are a great color, they are also shaped in a way that express compassion, love, and anger all in a way. I have been told I have Very Expressive eyes!! I know I can’t lie! You can read my every mood or thought if you look me in the eye! I don’t mind it keeps me honest, pure, and if they are pretty then I don’t have to feel bad about you looking at them intently.

Back to today!!! A co-worker out-of-the-blue!! just looked at me and stated “you have beautiful eyes”…I was taken aback for a bit, not because I hadn’t heard it before, but because I wasn’t feeling beautiful right then. The unexpected complement took me a while to too absorb, and my blank stare startled her a bit. The uncomfortable moment only lasted for a few seconds, but the damage was done! She felt embarrassed, as did I for my “cold” response and We walked away from each other without properly acknowledging what was just said. I tried to approach it later but by then it was too late!

This tells me I need to learn to look at myself more and understand my great qualities, and be ready to accept complements when they come ” even if from left field”!

All I’m saying is we all need to love ourselves more, Like others love us!!!!

Love yourself,

I’ll love me! And you!

James