Mar 01 2009
Being a “Lone wolf” in a social profession?
Most of the people that know me would describe me as a funny, outspoken, and outgoing guy, However, they already know me. People that don’t, won’t see that side of me ( until I know them ). I am a reserved man by most’s standards, I have to be very comfortable with you to just hang out and cut loose. Going out and enjoying the company of other is difficult for me, even when I know them well!
My S.A.D. doesn’t allow me to “just meet up and be sociable”. Going out for coffee, Bowling, or even catching a movie is sometimes overwhelming to me. I should be bowling with my coworkers right now as a matter of fact, instead I am writing this entry in my blog. I have many good excuses for not going… I have to be at work early tomorrow, not having a car makes getting “to and fro” difficult, I had a long, hard day today. See everyone will understand my being absent, I have several outs! The truth of it though is that I more enjoy sitting here writing, than taking the bus to the bowling ally, and trying to enjoy myself with my friends, when all I want is to be alone. Large groups honestly freak me out most of the time. I always feel I need to talk to everyone and spend time with each person individually. I can’t just enjoy the moment, It’s all or nothing with me, sit with one friend or be a social butterfly, and spend very little time with any one person. I almost always just opt out all together.
I want to explore this more, but I just lost half of this post due to some strange computer bull–t! I hit save and the last two paragraphs disappeared! I’m tired and pissed so I’ll pick up from here tomorrow!
James
Stumble It!
Ohhh James. Its was a fun time. I completely understand why you did not attend. It was a long Sunday, I was really tired too. I actually showed up by via metro transportation. The time in the bowling ally was fun but i drank too much, to the point that i got lost right after. but anyways… you didn’t missed much. to be honest i wish i would have stayed home if i knew what was waiting for me at the end of the night. but ill tell you about it, at work.