Dec 12 2008
My life is Titanic(by bunnies)!
My last relationship was “The One” I thought. It had all the calling cards for a long term, loving bond between two people. We talked every day and even though it was a long distance relationship we were honest and understanding of this fact. We respected each other and would give ourselves time to deal with the (time or physical) difference between us. We were very good about respecting each others time zone and not being overbearing when it came to our contact. We built our relationship on our commutations with with each other and not on the physical aspect of the relationship. As We got to know each other and our love grew, We really began to need that actual physical bond. I planed a trip, and This is where I feel I fell short, but I will attack this issue later. For now I want to focus on the lighter (and more telling) side of this entry.
He introduced me to”angry alien” and I fell in love. The first movie He told me about on this site was Titanic, He sent me the link, so I watched it. I want to say I did see the movie in the theater, but I wasn’t as drawn into the hype of the movie as everyone else on the planet, but in this forum it was hysterical! I fell in love and watched all It’s offers in two days! They are only 30 seconds long after all. This is my main focus because of two of the lines in the cartoon. “I will jump, no you won’t,Yes I will” has ended up as the catch phrase for our relationship. We still want to be in each others lives, but are no longer in love ( Well He no longer loves me ) ! I don’t know why and it doesn’t really matter at this point, I just have to deal with this reality, or cut him out of my life completely ( which I am not willing to do). He is and always will be a very strong influence in my life, and ( at least) a great friend. The second is more telling to me, at the very end ” I won’t let go Jack” As she lets go! I found that funny before, but now It hits too close to home! I feel as if I have been let go…sinking to the bottom, and I am not sure why! This hurts more than knowing! If I knew what happened, I could work on fixing it, Or myself, so it doesn’t happen again the next time! For now, just enjoy the link and remember… life is short, live It one day at a time! Don’t dwell on” what might have been?”, instead, “what can be!”!!!
Look forward… not behind!
James
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