kitchen Angst!

Yes I am still partaking in the Cancer sticks! I have continued to keep it down to less than 10 a day, however I am above 5,  instead of less! I still refuse to feel guilty about it, even though I know those of you who have supported me through this may find it “a let down”, or “failure”, I see it as a move in the right direction! If I am still cutting back, I don’t care how many cigarettes I smoke in a day, I have been doing it for 24+ years, so any less is good in my book!

It may not be a good excuse… but I have been through a lot this year, and with the holidays starting next week, I don’t even want to stress myself anymore! I will get back on the plan after the family leaves, and the new year begins! I understand how lame it is to make excuses! However, If I am still cutting back, I don’t see it as an excuse, rather a delay of My end result! A move forward without the pain, yet!!!! Let that come with the new year, and all the other major changes I have to make!

2009 Will be a major life changing year for me as it is, so lets make it worth it!

I’m growing my hair, We have a new President, and I’m single again, I have a lot to look forward to!, Let me enjoy my last days with my mistress!

She knows the love affair is over, We just have to have this last fling!

Lets have a drink tonight… because tomorrow we die!!!!

James